Month: May 2020

New to orgasm denial 🥰 – here’s a long gushy post reflecting on the experience, since apparently my two modes are now “desperately horny” or “waxing poetic” 😂

So first things first, some context on me: I’ve known I was kinky for some time now, but have only been actually playing with real people for under a year! I feel like I simultaneously know a lot and nothing at all 😂My Sir u/OhHeyItsAJ is being wonderfully sweet and insanely devilish by treating me to some of my first positive experiences in orgasm denial. In the past I tried doing it without a Sir and essentially experienced subdrop, maybe multiple times? It’s a bit of a blur now, to be honest. That was back in October.Now, I have this Sir who I’m realizing is a really good mix for me. He listens to me and respects my hard boundaries and hard days. He wants me to become a better slut, and is helping me grow and push myself in both my confidence and in my physical abilities. And right now, most importantly to this sub, he’s teaching me just how insanely intoxicating orgasm denial can be 🥰💦Right now I’m at the end of day three (I think??) of this denial. I was allowed as many orgasms as I wanted this previous weekend, and have been on varying forms of no-touch ever since. I get obscenely wet and needy, just from a few fantasies shared via text. I feel desperate and willing to do (almost) anything right now. I’m daydreaming about what’s next – tomorrow I’m finally allowed to feel my hand on my clit again, but only for two minutes in the morning before work, then I have to stay desperate (and likely will beg, a LOT) until we’re both free to play again.As for orgasms themselves…I’ve always really enjoyed them. They’re often hard work for me, at least needing some degree of buildup. But in my denied state, I feel…a similar feeling, not nearly as intense but MUCH longer lasting, and MUCH more frequent. It’s probably thanks to working from home right now, but I’ve rarely been so horny that I just…put on some porn and humped into the air during my lunch break?? 😅🙈💦I think I like this current state of sluttiness. A lot. I feel like I’m doing something for him too, paying him back even a little by making him satisfied in the best way I‘m able to from this distance. I like being proud of myself, asking for what I want but then having the self control (that he asks of me 🥰) to not just take everything I want. I like being an obedient slut, and I like being His.A little part of me misses masturbating all the time. I didn’t realize how often I did it until I wasn’t allowed to touch myself or cum without his permission. But it’s a trade off that I’m enjoying right now – a game’s no fun if you break every rule, right? The satisfaction comes from getting through it even though it’s not easy. Surprisingly deep satisfaction.I’m also really excited about our little “schedule” too. Two weeks denial, one week orgasms. Adjust as needed. Possibly make the denial longer and longer, if I’m enjoying it and don’t physically suffer like I did that very first time on my own. 🥰🥰💦💦💦 Having a Dom to do this for makes a huge fucking difference. I didn’t want to admit that, but it does. I don’t enjoy playing on my own nearly as much now. I fucking LOVE having him to almost like….improv with. I throw a half-baked idea his way and he molds it into a concrete plan.Well. This turned into a lot more diary entry than I meant it to 😂😂😂 if you have any questions for my Sir or I, or any suggestions for fun denial ideas, please please comment!! I have toys and kinks listed on my profile 🥰 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n