Month: June 2020

I dont need or want real sex. I did it all. I was fucked in the pussy, in the ass, in the mouth. I sucked dick, I deepthroated dick, I licked pussy. I was cum on/in everywhere and swallowed. I was fucked hard. I was fucked gently. I was humiliated. I was slapped and beaten. I was blindfolded and tiedI was into it. There was almost nothing I wouldnt do. Pissed on? Not my favourite but it feels empowering to be humiliatedNobody could ever fuck me as good as myself. Sexting was always my favourite. There is joy in typing and reading and waiting. You fuck minds and not people. You get your own mind fucked and not just your holes. You dont get told what to do for others but told what you want to do for others. Your imagination runs wild and everything around you blanks outThere is the joy in knowing that all the people thirsting for you in real life and wanting to fuck you just dont get to. Only I get to and I dont even get to decide when or how. Strangers or programs or dice or clocks get to. This feels so empowering and relievingYou can call me a nympho. Like so many girls and women I learned that orgasms were good and how to reach them and that many struggle to ever have one. I felt lucky that I got to have them so easily and so I had as many as I could every day and a orgasm feels good but only for so short so I just kept fucking myself into more and more. Denying my orgasm never crossed my mind. Why would I do that? I wanted to put on and use all my toys and fuck myself stupid and I wanted to cum. When the Reddit Dom told me to deny for 3 days I felt it was a punishment but really it was a giftI felt good, I felt free, I felt better, I felt sexyI feel good, I feel free, I feel better, I feel sexy nowIt were only 3 days and oh my god how badly I still want orgasms but this is my thing now. Each day it got better and oh was I wet and throbbing on day 3. I liked to give up control and the humiliation tooThe orgasm I had on the long awaited session was the best I ever had. It was from a complete stranger on the internet that I just messaged because the idea turned me on. I had lots and lots of orgasms. There were good ones, there were bad ones. There were clitoral orgasms, vaginal orgasms, anal orgasms. Orgasms that made me shake and orgasms that made my eyes turn. I never had one that made me just stare and feel so blank and relieved. It felt like someone threw a brick inside my brainIm a good girl now. The big orgasm was only yesterday and I already threw a dice again that decides how many times I have to edge today (5!) and put on a random alarm clock between 1 and 20 minutes that tells me when female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

(Sorry, this post ended up being a tad long, TL;DR at the bottom!)So I posted a lil bit ago about starting long term denial. I’ll be honest, it’s been rough. I had an orgasm later that day humping my bed, I guess due to the core involvement. (I haven’t given myself a punishment yet, so I’m open to ideas, I just wanted to start edging ASAP to build up horniness again).Anyways, last night I had caught up with all my edges. I was laying in bed, legs crossed tightly and humping cause I was still horny but I knew if I kept touching, I’d ruin or even cum. I’m kinda strictly no touch after edging cause I have a problem with getting ahead of myself. So as I was sitting there really wanting to edge again I remembered I had this pretty glass dildo. I knew I couldn’t come from vaginal stimulation alone, so I grabbed the dildo and slid it in. It was a tad painful at first, but I could put it in relatively easy with no lube. And I slowly started to fuck myself. Normally PiV is…id say decent. Now, I LOVE sex and I love being penetrated, but I never cum from it without clit stimulation. It feels good (eyes roll to the back of my head kinda good) but this time was different.I was playing with my nipples, and shoving my dildo into my pussy faster and harder, and I started panting and my mind went almost completely blank. My brain has never been that blank, and I nearly moaned uncontrollably, and that literally never happens to me. I can always keep quiet. I’m pumping my dildo faster and I realized I’m reaching my edge. I had to physically say “no” and stop moving to get myself back down from that state. I almost came vaginally with only nipple stimulation and without clit stimulation. Granted, I’ve came from nipple stimulation before, but that was when I had just edged, and I still had to rub my pussy to get past the PONR. Edging has opened my eyes to my body for the first time in my life, I use to feel so guilty for masturbating, and I hated my body and my horniness. Now, I’m embracing it and I’m realizing my body can do so many things. I recently purchased a basic chastity belt and a butt plug, and I can’t wait to explore anal next!TL;DR: Doing long term denial, edged and nearly came from vaginal stimulation without clit stimulation for the first time in my life. Slowly learning to love my body and all the sexy things it can do. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

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