Month: September 2020

I like to pretend that my edges are my actual orgasms. Like I moan and move as if I just had an orgasm, but never really getting it. I think this way I might be able gaslight myself into believing that this is all I can get ❤️ I love being denied and being able to ride long edges at anytime. I love my denial and the dumb feeling that comes with it. Does anyone have other ways to gaslight and trick themselves more into denial, or other nice mantras?(Please no pms 💜) female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Master has requested that I write a post about my first week of denial as part of my task today.Day 1 started with one edge only, and I was to wear my butt plug. He requested that I wore it at work, but anything at work is a limit so I didn’t, which he was fine with. I put the plug in after work, and it felt good to have something in me.Day 2 I wasn’t allowed to touch my pussy or clit but was to play with my boobs and my nipples, imagining it was Master and imaging him fucking me rough.Day 3 I was to wear my nipple clamps and insert my butt plug. I was finally allowed to play with my clit and to edge three times.Day 4 I was at a friends house, so my tasks were to not touch my clit but I was to play with my nipples and focus on what it would be like to be fucked in the ass by my Master. I was allowed to touch my pussy lips. Then I was allowed to imagine sir licking and tormenting my clit, which left me feeling so desperate. I think this day is when I really started to get wet all the time, and notice the aching. I can usually go a few days easy, so day 4 was my day where I focused more and more on my need only.Day 5 was intense and very much enjoyable. I had the house to my self. I was to wear my nipple clamps and butt plus, I felt needy so asked if I could wear my big plug that really stretches me. I was to then take my biggest dildo and fuck my self. I posted about this earlier in the week. But it’s the first time I have edged with vaginal penetration only, and I’m so happy I’ve got to this point! All in all, i edged 50 times in total after begging my Master to edge more. I was so wet and needy and knew I would be aching in the morning from all the fucking and edging. After my edges I fucked my self in the ass, but this wasn’t part of my task so I needed a punishment 😩Day 6 was a no play dayDay 7 was also no touch, but I was to use a clit pump a lot so I could always feel how engorged I was but not allowed to touch. This hurt a little and we cut the punishment short (still no touching). I swear whilst I was at work all i could think about was being fucked or cumming.Today is day 8 and Master has set me an intense task. I am writing this between edges and I want to cum so so badly, I am so wet. Today I have to edge 88 times. 8 times an hour, but each edge has to be at least 5 minutes apart. If I don’t complete them all, tonight in bed I am to complete the rest back to back with no rest. I don’t think I will be able to edge every hour, as I’m driving a long road trip. So tonight will be intense! However, I’ve started already this morning and have only done a couple and it’s already making me ache so bad with need.It’s been a very good week so far, but I know it’s going to get a lot more intense the longer I go. Only twice before have I reached 2 weeks denial, so I am excited to be denied longer then this. I wish I was allowed to edge more, but also at the same time I feel like the slower I go the longer I will be able to hold out? I’ve realised during this so far, that I always crave to be stuffed with something like a butt plug or kegal balls, and at night all I crave is a dick in me. Maybe as punishment Master will make me sleep stuffed with a dildo, in chastity so there’s no escape and no touching?The more the week has gone all, the more I have craved torturing of my clit like putting pegs on it or spanking it with a paddle. I’ve never seen myself as a pain slut, but maybe I am?I’ve also introduced Master to this page, which he’s never read before. He messaged me saying it may be a mistake because there’s thing he’s read on here that he never thought to do before 😳😳I know Master will read this, and I think he may like this. If you have any ideas for my denial, or any punishment ideas then leave them below? (I have many toys; butt plugs in two sizes, small and big dildo, rabbit, mini wand, kegal balls, clamps, suckers, paddle spanner, ball gag, chastity belt (can only wear laying down as it’s a bit small) and oragel to numb my clit) female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n