Break me completely (please)

I think it doesn’t take much to break me and bring out my submissive nature. It doesn’t take much to turn me into a mindless slave with only her Sir’s pleasure in mind. I realized that it’s easier to just submit to what I feel and stop denying myself of who I am. At times, I feel like I shouldn’t be doing this, that I’m not that kind of girl who would post pictures and videos online just to please my Master, that no, I am not a denial slut who gets off on being denied my own orgasm.But that’s also a lie, because I want to do that. I want my Sir to see the real me, the slut inside me – a whore who’s begging to be trained into Sir’s perfect fucktoy. I want to be able to cum and ruin when being commanded and to stop touching the moment he decides so (it’s so hard to stop when the pleasure is already so damn good though)That’s also how I got the courage to text Sir “May I edge?” right after I woke up this morning. All my dignity, of what little I had, was thrown out of the window. I got no shame in asking Sir for an edge because, god, damn it, I needed him so bad. I craved for him and it’s a foreign feeling for me, needing a man like Sir in my life.He was amused, I think, that I dared to ask for an edge after saying good morning to him 😆 And Sir…Sir made me ruined instead – a punishment for last night. 3 ruins in succession – 2 was done besides my sleeping sister, the last one was during my shower. Mind you, I was never one to edge in the morning. It was always night time, when my sister is sleeping and I could listen to porn and bite into the pillows as I masturbated.Not this time. I have Sir now. With that thought in mind, I spread my legs wide, rubbing my sore and swollen clit, chasing desperately for that edge, for that release that will never be achievable. And when the countdown began, I was a goner. I ruined on command.I fucking ruined on command. I was so scared of the effect Sir has on me – to the point where my body listens to him and not to myself anymore – but I needed another ruin. I needed to feel Sir with me, to have him controlling every part of me, and gosh. Fucking hell. The second ruin felt even better.That was the exact moment I realized Sir had turned unsatisfactory ruins (I truly disliked ruins before) into my pleasure. And once he knew this, he told me I won’t be getting another ruin for a very long, long time uwuCan’t say no to that. I do need to stay constantly wet and horny.And then Sir said something while I was on the way to work.Sir: And now I’m thinking of extending your denial timeMe: Sir whyyySir: Because I can and you don’t want a full orgasm ever againHe did say that, but he got concerned over me when I agreed without a thought, asking me to think about it seriously (isn’t he sweet?)And I did. The drive seemed longer when I got lost in thought. I do want that, to never cum again and I swear I’d be fine with it – or is that just my foggy clouded mind talking? It had never crossed my mind of the pros and cons, and I didn’t know what I should be thinking about seriously 😭😭😭Sir answered that for me – let’s start small, with a set amount of orgasms for a year. And I was relief, yet a tiny bit sad because I did want to try never cumming again. Would it drive me insane? Would I beg endlessly for relief? I have no idea, but that’s for the future.The rest of the day was a blur as I was on no touch until Sir woke up. My cunt was needy. I was needy and eager to please him. But I was specifically told not to touch my cunt until he was awake.So… after shower, I kneeled on the floor and took a video. It was a moment of…I don’t know, a realization that Sir owns me, that I am someone’s sub now. It made me happy but I was still scared. It happened all too fast and I got insecure.So even though I was horny, I edged like Sir asked me to, I humped my other plushie and the sink again (with a DIY collar to choke myself with) and tried to fuck myself with a hairbrush handle, but in all honesty, my mind was a mess and not in a sexy way.So I confronted Sir – more like I broke down a tiny bit during our play, and this man…fucking hell, please give him a medal because he said all the right words and comforting me so good. Ahhh, I’m lucky to have him as my Master.Then I’m back to my slutty self. One sentence from Sir and my mind changes its gear into its submissive nature.”I’ll break you soon and make you a mindless little slut, incapable of feeling insecure. Only horny and cum hungry and silly”I wonder how many days it’ll take to break me completely.14 edges, 5 ruins as of 08.12.2020 🥰🥰🥰 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n