Denial mood swings

Okay so every once in awhile I get into this denial headspace that consumes my free time. And it’s great. And it’s fun. Its been especially fun lately bc COVID has me unemployed currently.Anyways I always go through this cycle of loving denial and edging and feel super sexual and then these down periods where I wonder what the hell is wrong with me and why the hell am I doing this and GUILT.It usually happens when things get a little real like when I talk to someone and they push me too far. And don’t get me wrong I love it in the moment but once it’s over it’s like im ashamed with myself. I also get super paranoid that everyone knows how I spend my time…I also start to question why I’m doing this and if I should continue after I have a ruined orgasm.It’s usually when I fall of the bandwagon.Both scenarios-talking with someone new and a ruin happened today and I am NOT feeling good.Does anybody ever have this feeling? And if you do, how do you deal with it or how do you continue your denial or even tell yourself you have nothing to be guilty for? female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n