my denial, day two (part 2) !! (journal)

I told sir I would update on the rest of my day before I slept, so here I am… Hopefully I can remember everything, but honestly I was so horny all day and my mind was hazy so this might be a little bit all over the place. I’m just so preoccupied by my pussy, all the time! Especially right now…So if you’ve been reading my updates, you’ll know about my throne fit for a princess — just a rolled up shirt I get to put on my chair and grind my needy pussy against it. Sir’s rule, however, is that I have to wear this little paper crown while I sit there … and I just find it so humiliating that I’ve refused to sit on it. Being so stubborn has consequences! Sir wasn’t happy with how I was avoiding my throne, so to give me some extra motivation, he’s putting me on no touch starting tomorrow. And this will last until… Monday. Four days of no touch! Already! I suppose it’s deserved, for being too proud to just wear my crown like a good girl. It’s just so humiliating… Makes me feel absolutely pathetic. But I guess that’s the point! I am pathetic! All I want to do is just rub my pussy all day, edging it over and over again. Anyway, tomorrow is full no touch but after that, I’ll be on no touch except for when I agree to sit on my throne. That’s all I’ll be allowed to have. I guess I’ll get desperate enough that I’ll just give in to it.It also helps that earlier, Sir asked me to post a poll to see if I could get out of wearing the crown. Obviously it didn’t work in my favour. Over a hundred votes telling me I need to wear it… Well. I tried. And I also really like knowing so many people wanted me to be humiliated like this. It’s hot to feel like I’m just a piece of entertainment to others, that all I’m good for is being denied and humiliated because other people enjoy seeing it. Sir was happy. Now he’s teasing me with the prospect of having to get a princess dress too…What else? Oh, I did something very silly and I begged sir not to let me cum on Monday, as was the plan. I was just so horny and enjoying the feeling of being denied so much that I said I didn’t want to cum. I said that by Monday, when I’d been denied for a week, I would probably feel differently, but right now I’m only a couple days in and I don’t really feel the NEED to cum. Yet. I just want to stay denied. But sir said to make the decision right now, so I asked him to not let me cum on Monday. He agreed, of course. I don’t know what day he has planned now. I’m denied indefinitely now, I guess. It’s all up to him…Sir rewarded me with getting to rub my clit for a little while for being good like that. That made me so happy! Any time I get to rub my clit I’m happy.Tonight was supposed to be the night I tried anal, but seeing as it was my last night before no touch, sir changed my task. Honestly, I was a little bit disappointed. I was getting excited to explore something I hadn’t before! But instead, I got 25 edges. TWENTY-FIVE! It was genuinely difficult. Felt amazing at first, but as I got into the teens it started getting harder and harder to hit the edge each time. My last few were very soft, but I managed. I also had to slap my clit ten times in between each edge.Now, my pussy is all puffy and sore. But I finished my edges almost an hour ago and I’m starting to feel the ache to touch again — but it’s stronger than it was before. It makes sense, the more edging I do the more desperate I’ll feel. After twenty-five edges, I was initially exhausted but now it’s just set up my body to crave even more. Just in time for days of no touch! I’m going to really struggle, I think… My pussy is aching so badly, I’m sure I’ll wake up dripping. The fact that I won’t get to wake up and edge to start my day is going to be so hard for me.And knowing sir, he’ll be making me listen to and watch things to keep me desperate. The rest of the week is going to be so difficult! He’s reading this. Please be nice, sir. Or make it really really hard for me. I love to be a dripping aching mess…Mm, I’m tired and horny so I’ll just write without thinking about consequences. We all know I’m not good at thinking about consequences. But I hope sir gives me audios to listen to and porn to watch and tells me to listen and watch morning and night, and maybe during the day too. I never want to forget just how badly my pussy aches to be touched. Want to beg for permission to touch and be told no… want to have to keep my legs spread so I can’t even clench my things together to get relief. I want to be so frustrated I could cry from how bad I want to touch. I love being denied. I love knowing that I say silly things that get me in more trouble, because I just really want to be denied as much as I might beg otherwise. And that when I wake up tomorrow morning and I realise I wrote all of this, I’ll regret it because I’ll need to touch so bad and he won’t let me.Goodnight! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n