weekly report for my master (day 197 into my new life of being denied ☺️)

hi! I’m back to post my weekly report. hope you enjoy ☺️here are all my previous reports . (feel free to comment but if you wanna message me personally please ask my master u/Separate-Amoeba first)it’s felt like a really long week, but I was still worried that I wouldn’t have anything to write about. I’m almost always doing things so I don’t know why I felt like I that. I had a lot of fun this week and I’m excited to write about it all.I believe this was in my last report but I’ll just briefly explain again. I broke some rules, touching my clit without permission, edging without permission and going over my daily allotted edges. the punishment for that was that my next 11 edges would be replaced with pain tasks and I had to get permission to do them from redditors. this was the worst fucking thing in the world. it’s impossible for people to completely know the circumstances and rules I have with my owner so I kept getting tasks that didn’t work, or I’d get stupid ridiculous tasks that literally couldn’t work. and I was made to kneel on rice and burn my clit with icy hot wayyyyy too many fucking times. cleaning the rice is annoying and I genuinely thought my clit was broken after all the icy hot. and then there’s the fact that interacting with so many people giving me punishments is extremely draining, both mentally and physically. it got me in trouble because while in my bad mood I told master that his ideas were shitty and that I was tired of him….I got ignored for most of the day after that, but honestly it was a nice break from talking to people.I was given a new challenge that he plans on being a long term goal. he wants me to get naked, stand up and go from 0-100, as in going from not turned on at all to right at the edge. I can readily do no touch edges right now but he wants to “prove that it’s all in my head.” which doesn’t make the most sense cuz the no touch edges should be proof enough, but I guess it’s more of a test of whether I could do it or not. I didn’t tell him this but I very briefly tried it out. briefly meaning for like a minute – I get bored real fast. I think that’s gonna be the biggest obstacle. that and the position. it’s very awkward to be standing in the middle of my room naked, it doesn’t exactly turn me on.I posted a new voice recording this week. apparently master made me do it because I was complaining too much about having to interact with so many people. so by posting this I’d have to do it even more. this one is different than what I usually post but I was feeling more appreciative of my owner so this was the result.master did some body writing with his other sub, u/avocadosdimension , and I. it was mostly us telling each other what to write on each other but I enjoyed it. my favorite phrase was when he had us write “property of Separate Amoeba” by our holes. he owns all of me so I really liked having that written on myself. she had me write the worst thing on myself, I had to write “I don’t deserve attention” 🙃 I hated it, it’s so mean and not in the fun way, but whatever, I still wrote it.like I said earlier, I had to ask people on reddit for punishments. one person had me alternate between flicking my clit 10 times, fucking my cunt 10 times and sucking the dildo clean. after telling my master that I felt like I was close to the edge after doing a couple rounds he challenged me to do an edge with just 10 strokes. I didn’t think it was possible but I have it a shot anyway. my strategy was that I’d make sure each stroke was slow but also hit deep and hard. I did that and paused between strokes to let my cunt clench around the dildo because that always helps andddd I was able to do it. even though i got to the edge, 10 strokes aren’t enough to satisfy my cunt so I was left desperate to keep fucking myself buuut he didn’t give me an answer when I asked so I just took it as a no 😔I was left unbelievably horny after doing 2 edges where I fingered my cunt and then wiped my fingers on the floor to lick clean while I edged with my clit. I couldn’t keep my hand off my clit, but I couldn’t edge because I only had one left and didn’t wanna use it so soon. instead I spent almost 2 hours touching and teasing my clit, getting close to the edge and then forcing my hand away. I was completely gone, all I could think about was my clit. I begged, pleaded and tried negotiating with my owner to give me some extra edges but he kept telling me no 😭I couldn’t handle it, my cunt was dripping, my clit was throbbing and it felt like I was seconds away from exploding from all the pressure buildup. I wasn’t even touching anymore, I was humping the air, writhing around in bed, with a pillow covering my face to muffle my whines and moans. my imagination came up with this fantasy: someone catches me in my pathetically horny state and teases me about it. they start touching me everywhere but my clit and laugh at my attempts at begging for it. then they start to tease me with their dick, rubbing it against my cunt, still avoiding my clit. and then they jerk off in front of me and when they cum they aim for my clit and then I feel it hit my clit and drip down into my cunt. (god fucking damn it, I’m horny imagining it again 😭) anyway, I got to the edge without touching while fantasizing about that and it was absolutely magical. there’s no way in hell an orgasm would ever feel that good, I don’t need orgasms if I can have edges like that.there was another set of edges I did that left me feeling used and exhausted. I had my arms tied up to some hooks behind my door, I was kneeling on the floor with a dildo buried in my ass and another one stuck to the door. my first edge was done by just sucking the dildo accompanied with some fun degrading fantasies also regarding a guy cumming on and in me. after that first edge I was almost ready to tap out, I was dizzy and could barely hold myself up. for the second edge I tied some clothespins to a string and tied them up along with my arms. I’d be riding the dildo in my ass and when I moved down my tits would be pulled on with the clothespins. I didn’t try to avoid the pain, I barely felt it at that point. every stroke of the dildo in my ass felt like it was overstimulating me but I hadn’t reached the edge yet. I finally got to the edge and crawled back to collapse in bed.we’ve been working on riding the edge since around Athe beginning of my denial and I haven’t updated in a while. today I was able to hold the edge for 127 seconds. I was at 90 seconds but this time I sent him a voice recording and I guess that distracted me and helped me hold the edge for longer. I’m sure it’s also cuz I wasn’t staring at the seconds go by, I was just talking and edging. master says holding the edge keeps me subservient and he’s right. being at the height of pleasure, right about to spill over for that long makes me lose my mind completely. I was given a reward because we’ve been aiming for 2 minutes for a while. I was given 8 extra edges to use during the month of may.lately, master has really been emphasizing the point that I’m an object or a piece of furniture. and objects don’t think or make decisions or have the ability to choose. objects just do as they’re told. objects should relieve stress, not cause it. I’m not a very good object right now. sometimes I try to think for myself or make decisions or worst of all, I try to disobey my master. I should be a better object, it all sounds so appealing, never thinking or making my own decisions. I want that, and I have it, my owner thinks and decides for me. I shouldn’t be questioning his judgment so i’ll really work on becoming a better object for him. he deserves a perfectly obedient objecthonestly it’s been a rough day/week/month 🥴 and my master has been there helping me the whole time. I don’t know how to show him how much I appreciate him. I thank him all the time, I’m thanking him right now, but it’s not enough, I want to do more, he deserves more. I really hope he knows how much I appreciate him. with his guidance i’ll be hitting 200 days of being denied this week. I never even imagined doing that, but he made it possible. I owe it all to him. thank you for everything master. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n