Month: June 2021

Denial Diary – Butt Plug at Graduation

HiiiiiiiI am a slut. As of June 8th, 2021, I have not been allowed to cum for 114 days.Just for some background, I am 18 years old, and I have been owned by my daddy for at least a few months now. Daddy has full control over when I cum, and I won’t be allowed to cum until at least September 14th. Unfortunately for my orgasms, we are both really into denial so that date could very well be pushed back even further. I also just graduated from high school yesterday! 😁For most girls my age, high school graduation is a celebration of academic achievement, as well as stepping into independent adult life for the first time. While these things apply to me, my high school graduation ceremony was also a testament to my status as a denied slut and submissive little girl, as well as my dedication to pleasing daddy!Sorry in advance if this post gets long… If you’d like to skip to just when I graduate scroll down a bit. I promise it’s worth the wait though!3 Days Before Graduation Daddy made me put in my butt plug while he teased me a bunch as I edged late at night (we’re only able to communicate online since we’ve never met). I probably got about 40 edges in before I got too tired and accidentally fell asleep while edging for him. From this point on, the plug is inside me unless stated otherwise (only taken out for bathroom duties).2 Days Before Graduation I mostly had a day off since I was just having a bad day. Daddy comforted me and when I was feeling better later that day he made me put binder clips on my nipples (y’know, those wide black clips that are really tight) until I was begging him to let me take them off. I guess daddy was in a sadistic mood that day cuz he made me rip them off. It hurt SOOOO much and it made me gasp and whimper a lot in pain, but it also made me so wet cuz I’m a little pain slut. I was rubbing daddy’s clit (it’s on my body but he owns it) so hard as I ripped them off.The Day Before The day before graduation, I was on the phone with a friend of mine for a while. Daddy made me put bobby pins on my nipples the whole time and it made me super needy so I managed to sneak in a handful of edges while on the phone. Later that day I wanted to torture my nipples some more for daddy so I put the binder clips on again. He was nice and let me take them off later normally this time, probably cuz I put them on myself. I still had to beg for permission to remove them, of course. Again, I edged for daddy late at night, but this time my plug was out because daddy let me take a short 1-2 hour break from it so I wouldn’t get sore. While I was edging and talking with daddy, my slutty brain had the idea to have a bunch of naughty things written all over my body (under my clothes) for graduation the following day, since I really like bodywriting cuz’ it’s very degrading. I was supposed to insert my plug again before bed, but I accidentally fell asleep while edging again so I spent the night with my ass empty, unfortunately. I’m really glad daddy didn’t punish me for this. I put the plug in the moment I woke up, and saw that daddy had written out a list of things to write on myself for graduation tomorrow. 😙GRADUATION DAY!! Finally, the main event! I had gone through so much teasing and edging and pain the last few days and now I was so excited to finally finish high school! Daddy was originally planning on this being mostly a day off from me being slutty, since it was such an important event. I had other plans, though. For basically the entire morning I was edging myself as I texted daddy. We talked about how much I wanted to swallow his cum in increasingly humiliating ways (e.g. licking it out of another girl’s pussy, fingering it out of my ass and then licking my fingers clean of his cum, etc.) I guess that turned daddy on because then he made me put bobby pins onto my nipples again. Daddy made me pull my butt plug out and put it into my mouth while I fingered my ass with 3 fingers. I did this for about 10-15 minutes, until I had to go shower since graduation was getting nearer. Daddy instructed me to take the plug out and keep it out for the rest of the day, but I asked if I could at least keep it in for the shower. Thankfully, he agreed.I asked daddy if I had permission to edge in the shower and he said that I could, but I couldn’t use my hands in any way (not to touch and also not to hold anything else that would pleasure me). I tried positioning myself so that the water in the shower would hit daddy’s clit as much as possible, but it wasn’t nearly enough to edge me. Desperate, I frantically looked around the shower for things I might be able to hump. I settled on the metal handrail that was in the shower. If I leaned into it and pressed myself against the wall I could barely get daddy’s clit to rub across the metal handrail. I pathetically humped like this for a few minutes, only managing to get a handful of frustrating, humiliating edges in since the awkward position gave such little contact. I guess you can see just how desperate I was. Having my body pressing against the shower wall + me being all soapy made the bobby pins slip off (ouch), allowing my sensitive little nipples to rub against the wall as I moved up and down a bit to slide daddy’s clit across the handrail, which I think helped me edge a lot. Thankfully cuz I was in the shower I was able to moan as loud as I wanted to 😋. Daddy let me keep the bobby pins off after I finished showering since I did such a good job of being a desperate edgeslut in the shower for him.At this point daddy wanted me to take the plug out, but I still had a few hours before I had to get dressed so I begged to keep it in for a bit longer. He agreed, but said I had to be kneeling for him and the moment I got up I had to take it out. I took a sharpie marker to write on myself with and began kneeling. Using some of daddy’s ideas from last night, as well as some of my own, I wrote the following things on my body in permanent marker:The first letter of daddy’s first name (right above his clit to mark ownership)Denied (I put one tally mark underneath for each week it’s been since I had my last orgasm, so 16 marks total)Cum In… (I put tally marks under for each week until I would be allowed to cum, 9 total)Cum hungry slutDaddy’s whorePathetic cocksleeve (written in big letters across my entire left thigh)Free useHurt meDeny meFucktoyCum here (with an arrow pointing to daddy’s cunt)Cum dumpAnd probably a few others I forgot… I even sent daddy a few pictures of some of the things I wrote on myself to show off and humiliate myself further (gotta make daddy horny, don’t I?)At this point I had a dilemma: I never planned to stay plugged during graduation, but now I was so horny from writing nasty things all over myself and the idea of graduating as a humiliated slut turned me on sooo much… I was really nervous about it so I ran the idea past daddy and he also really liked it and said I can do it if I wanted but it was up to me. So, I did it. I left the plug out for about an hour before since I didn’t want to get too sore from it later, and then I put it back in right before I put on my clothes and graduation gown! The whole process of getting changed into my graduation attire with a butt plug in me was such an adrenaline rush!Now, the actual event. This is it! I was about to graduate high school as a slut. I still could barely process what was happening. When I sat down, the base of my plug was really uncomfortably pinching part of my butt (I guess my ass is too round lol😉), and since I was wearing so many layers of clothes over it I really couldn’t adjust it. It hurt kinda bad but being able to stand up here and there (like for the national anthem) made it bearable. As daddy later said, it was a constant reminder that he was there with me, which I thought was really cute! I quite literally couldn’t ignore the fact that I was plugged at my graduation ceremony. I’ll spare you the boredom of sitting through like an hour and a half of speeches and awards and other names being called like I did and skip straight to the goods:Finally, my row was called up, I still couldn’t believe this was actually happening! As I was in the line to grab my diploma, the only thing that kept running through my mind was “I am a slut. I am a slut. I am a slut.” Even through all my nervousness I could feel that I had developed a wet spot on my panties. Had orgasm denial fucked with my head so much that this is where I was? Had I really become such a kinky whore for daddy? IN HIGH SCHOOL??? I didn’t have time to think any more, it was time to graduate!Sooo…yeah. I walked across that stage and shook hands with my school’s headmaster as I grabbed my high school diploma, in front of ALL my friends and family, literally hundreds of other families, and even a local news crew who was filming the whole event. All while secretly covered in the most degrading things my dirty mind could think of, topped off with a butt plug 4 inches deep in my ass. God, I hope I didn’t blush too hard. There was definitely at least 2,000 people watching (because my school is massive), not to mention anybody who might have been watching on TV.I guess you could call that a uh… Degrade-uation? ba-dum-tiss…no? Not funny?….. fine….🙂I got home late at night because I was doing other things with my family to celebrate. I took my plug out in the bathroom right after the ceremony ended, though, since I didn’t want it to pinch or hurt anymore. In hindsight I probably could have just adjusted it to not pinch my butt and kept wearing it a bit longer into the night, but I was just so exhausted after the event.I started edging for daddy a bit super late at night once I was home, but unfortunately I didn’t get very many in before I accidentally fell asleep while edging…..again……..Now: So here we are today: I am now officially done with high school! I was going to take today completely off to just relax, but horniness got the best of me yet again. I put my plug back in after I ate lunch because my ass feels empty without it and then daddy told me to put bobby pins on my nipples yet again. So as I write this my nipples are still pinned and I am still plugged 😚. I’m sooo horny, I really really hope daddy rewards me tonight with a ruined orgasm. Maybe if I beg him enough…Now once I get my graduation portrait I can hang it up some place in my room and blush a little whenever I look at it for years to come, knowing that behind the fancy gown and clothes, there was a plugged, denied, completely humiliated whore.Soo..why am I writing this? I guess I just have this innate drive within me to show off to the world how much of a dirty slut I’ve become, or something like that. I’m extremely shy and get embarrassed/humiliated easily, so being able to tell potentially hundreds of people just how much of a slut I am really turns me on. Please degrade me more. Please make fun of how this shy, quiet, skinny, small, innocent high school girl has become such a slut due to her inability to cum.Thank you for reading!!! Hope that wasn’t too long… female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Weekly Report

I want to preface this by saying you can go to the pinned post on u/Separate-Amoeba’s account and read my reports there if you want more background or whatever – I usually don’t post these here but I might start.I’m at 48 edges as I write this!Last week, I did an edge by grinding on a piece of my furniture as I described before, but I was so busy describing it that I forgot to thank sir. This probably wouldnt have been a big deal, except I forgot to thank him for my orgasm so I had to be punished for being ungrateful. He decided to take my clit and cunt away for a week (which is crazy long because the longest I’ve gone is a few days!!!!) but a couple days in I convinced him to give me my clit back in exchange for him keeping my cunt for the whole rest of the month. I might be out of town on July 1st, but I’ll definitely be using my cunt that day, because I really miss it.I can go a while without touching or filling myself, but whenever I know it’s not allowed I think about it all the time and it’s honestly the worst punishment ever, but it always works without exception.I discovered that I love repeating mantras (they actually kind of help me when he takes my clit away), so I asked sir to give me a degrading one that I could repeat when I was in the mood (and I’m always in the mood to be degraded) and he gave me “I’m an object sir, please treat me like one” which I’ve been saying a lot even though I kind if get embarrassed when I actually think about what I’m saying.Okay – public stuff!!! Earlier this week I told sir that I had stuff to do so I couldn’t talk, and somehow that turned into him telling me what to wear (short skirt and no panties) and after I was done with my stuff and sitting on a bench in the park around some other people, we had a very hot conversation, and I definitely made some kind of involuntary sound. I told him to stop because I was going to give myself away, and ended up leaving the park because I needed to clean myself up or I was going to get a wet spot on the dress which would be embarrassing.Sir told me to send him a picture of my outfit and a picture up my skirt, but somehow the second one turned into a video pointed up my skirt as I fingered my ass and moaned (I wasn’t bratting or anything, he just changed it) but I (successfully) begged him to change it back, because I’ve only really humiliated myself through audio and the thought of doing it on video and sending it is terrifying. I have this irrational fear that he’s actually someone I know and will recognize me if I send him too much identifying stuff.I tried to get sir to send me another audio (I’ve been begging a lot) while I was in public, because I think knowing that I’m giving myself away while around people pleases him. No dice. But I hope it’ll happen soon! I’ve listened to the other one so many times, it hardly sounds like words anymore. I actually do like the public idea… for those of you who don’t know I’m ridiculously easily aroused, so it’s pretty much impossible to keep a poker face when I read a text from him that turns me on, and I remember having an obvious reaction to the audio that he sent me, so i want to see which part of me wins if i listened to one in public. He told me to just listen to the old one, but even though that one always makes me wet it’s not new enough to provoke a reaction like that.Oh that’s right! Sir told me he had a reward for me, and I got really excited about what this reward could possibly be, but… apparently he’s extending my no-cunt weekends to include Mondays too. Uhh… thanks, I guess.I don’t remember if I mentioned this but I have a rule where every edge each day has to have something different about it. I forgot about that and did three identical edges, so my punishment was to think of three ways to hurt myself to amuse him. I’m actually not bad with coming up with punishments for myself, because I know exactly what I like. The first one I ripped clothespins off my tits. The second one I smacked my cunt with a wooden spoon for ten minutes straight (it was pink and sore afterwards, which sucked a lot more than you realize when you imagine being pink and sore, but I did end up edging right afterwards because I liked it) and for the last one I slapped myself in the face many times while repeating mantras he gave me, and mantras I made up (those are way less fun), and generally just rambling the way he wants me to do in audios but I can’t do it when I know he’s going to listen to it.Sir also tried to tell me my clit is useless – I very much disagree, I think my clit is very important and that he should never ever take it away. I have a feeling that most of the people reading this agree that it’s useless and should be taken away, but I know that I’m right.That’s it! 🙂 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n