if u want a more detailed post with all my personal rules and challenges + day to day updates pls check out the first post on my profile. in this post iām going to summarize my thoughts from this first week.okay, so iām currently on day 7 and i have actually realised one big thing my first week of being denied, ever.iāve realised that iām enjoying being denied more than cumming or ruining.on day 3 i came during sex, and while it felt great in the moment, it wasnāt worth it. afterwards i always feel disappointed and empty, and itās been like that since before i started my denial, but even more so now. so even though iām super horny and wet all the time, which is not ideal in all situations, (especially when iām trying to sleep) i think this is much better in the long run than the short high and pleasure of cumming but then feeling like shit.a part of my punishment for cumming was orgasm torture, and i didnāt enjoy it. which is great in a way bc it was a punishment after all, but thatās when i realised that i actually donāt want to cum, ?ever? but maybe itās too early for me to say on only day 7.iāve also thought about if i should tell my bf about this or not. TBH, iām super turned on by the fact that i have to fake my orgasms and deny myself in secret, but the question is if thatās realistic. i clearly couldnāt do it the first time, and i didnāt enjoy cumming either so why shouldnāt i tell him? but iām not even sure if he would like to deny me bc he loves to see me cum. but if it turns out that he would like to deny me, iām giving him complete control of my orgasms. while itās a super hot thought, i donāt know if iām ready for it yet. so for now, i think i wonāt tell him and just take the punishment if i accidentally cum.please feel free to comment your thoughts or give me suggestions of punishments and challenges/rules/tasks. you can also message me. š„° female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n