[42F] Something different, something scary, AMA

Hi everyone, I’ve been lurking this subreddit for a few months and I decided to make a throwaway account to participate.Pretty recently my Mistress decided to see if I could be trained to cum from nipple stimulation alone. The effort involved keeping me denied for 38 days before she showed me some mercy. During that time I remembered how much I used to get off on stories of prolonged denial, something that had somewhat fallen off of my radar in the last 3 years due to circumstances.I confessed all of this to her, because as my owner she’s entitled to every thought in my head and also if I don’t tell her my fantasies they may never come true. Well, I’m nothing if not a woman of extremes and I recently surprised her with a confession that I’ve been fantasizing about permanent orgasm denial. The next time I asked to play with my wand after that she said “no” and told me that I could ask again in 2 weeks instead of the usual 1 day.She likes to make me happy and being a denied, horny, needy, submissive slut makes me feel sexy, which makes me feel happy.It’s scary looking forward to a future where I get to cum rarely if at all, but it’s oh so exciting as well! I love watching videos of edging, ruined orgasms, and begging to cum, and I want to be those girls but there’s a problem. I’m quite different from them.First of all, I’m older. I’m not some early 20s amateur porn star like most of the girls in these videos and gifs. Second, I’m gay AF and lesbian orgasm denial is in the distinct minority (bless you Rosie and Alena). Third, I’m transgender, pre-op, I don’t even have a pussy yet (it’s in the works!).So I feel a little alienated from the community, so to speak. I’m hoping this post will generate some supportive response, and to facilitate that, I’m willing to answer any questions except for identifying details. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n