Discouraged from denial

Since mid-October (91 days ago to be exact) I’ve been receiving masturbation/edging/denial instructions from a user on Reddit. He’s recently dropped off the grid since late December and I haven’t had an orgasm since his instructions and online play with me began 91 days ago. Prior to this, the longest I have ever gone without orgasm is maybe a week?I’ve wanted to orgasm for months now and I’ve never pushed myself this far before. My birthday is next week so I might as well wait until then or wait until the 100 day-mark, but I’m feeling really discouraged.Along with the discouragement I feel hurt that I’ve come this far along to be ghosted. Granted, nothing was written in stone about our dynamic, but I feel like the past 91 days seems like a waste of time. The buildup isn’t really worth it anymore.I’m not sure what to do at this point and not sure what the purpose of this post is, but maybe I could use some insight? (Please refrain from comments such as “good girls don’t cum” because I know, but this is something I’m struggling with emotionally more than physically). female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n