You know what’s a really weird thing about edging? It’s the fact that the more you edge, the more you ache for that relief and yet… you choose to deny your own orgasms willingly. At least that’s how it is for me.I have the choice to orgasm. I don’t have a Sir or a Daddy at the moment, just my own self. See, I CAN orgasm whenever I want to, but being denied turns me on so much that I don’t want to cum…at least not for now.Even as I’m writing this, one hand typing away, the other rubs slow circles on my clit….just teasing my needy cunt, just aching and never, ever stop.Orgasms used to be a privilege for me. When that was taken away from me, ruins become my one and only satisfaction. Mind you, I started taking denial seriously on the 6th of December, 2020. Within a month and 17 days, I’ve learnt that ruins are something I had to earn for. I’m lucky if I even got my previous Sir’s permission for ruins 🤪I edged 150 times two days ago. That was the most edges I’ve done in my whole life. By the end of it, my cunt was red, swollen and drippy. I swear it felt so good that I didn’t want to stop at all. I was lost in a frenzy of rubbing myself continuously, and sometimes humped my own pillows and plushies. When I woke up, my cunt was dying for some attention.But now I realized, edging itself is becoming a satisfaction from me. Can you see the pattern? How orgasms used to be so rewarding, then ruins… and now edging…It’s a pretty fucked up thing, to be able to feel that much of pleasure solely from edging and now I wonder how it’d feel to be denied even my own edges.Ah wait, someone did that before. Asking me to ache for him. To stay like that all night long. To just stroke my clit once, let it twitches, and repeat – never really get to the edge but just stay needy and aching.And now… now I’m doing it again. Limiting the amount of edges to do in a day, because I am not sure if I should let myself feel so fulfilling from edging……..Or should I? 🤔 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n