weekly report for my master (day 190 into my new life of being denied ☺️)

ok I have like a minute left to post this before it’s considered late so I’m kinda stressed and don’t know what to write here so i’m sorry about that but I really hope you enjoy the report ☺️here are all my previous reports . (feel free to comment but if you wanna message me personally please ask my master u/Separate-Amoeba first)you know, I didn’t think this would be an eventful week. I had 4 finals to take and I just thought I’d be too busy to do much. I was proven to be quite wrong cuz I have a lot to write about and it’s all fun, new things. like, a tits only edge, an extremely creative punishment with interesting results, a very funny joke/prank I made and load of other stuff.he gave me a task to do some pain in public, i’ve edged before but haven’t hurt myself. he had me go into a public bathroom and do 40 rubber band snaps against my clit. it wasn’t as embarrassing as either of us hoped, I guess I’m kind of immune to the whole doing things in a bathroom thing. it did really hurt tho and I was walking around with a sore clit for a while. we did have a talk of taking things more public and all the ideas we had embarrassed me and turned me on.on this week’s journey of no touch edges I did one using just my tits. I started out letting my hands roam around my body, slowly touching and teasing, not exactly planning on trying for a tits only edge but I got really horny and felt like there was a possibility for one. I had to stop and ask for permission from a redditor to edge because of masters rule but I got that pretty quick. I went back to twisting and pulling and hurting and kinda groping my tits. I don’t think they’ve ever been that sensitive before. it was making my cunt ache to be touched. I wanted to touch or squeeze my legs together, I wanted any other stimulation. as I got close I pinched and twisted really fucking hard and it got me to the edge. the common theme of these “no touch edges” is my whole body getting really hot and my clit throbbing like crazy and this one was no exception. it also really made my tits sore but it was so worth it.here’s the start of the punishments/ tasks that were all sort of connected. beginning with 3 edges I did in a row that earned me a punishment, not because of the edging but because I refused to tell him how I did them at first. ok so I was in a really shitty mood and didn’t want to edge at all, but like I also really did want to edge at the same time. lol, it’s just kind of hard to start edging when I’m crying my eyes out. that did however make the edges more interesting. ruining my holes and edging while in tears was actually kind of cathartic.anywayssss, we do this thing called the traveling dildo, which is the dildo being taken on a trip to be used in all 3 of my holes and that’s how I did those 3 edges. I did an edge by just giving the dildo a blowjob. then another by pounding my cunt and the last, fucking my ass while standing (I almost fell to the floor from how shakey my legs were during this edge)because there were so many conflicting emotions happening while I was edging it felt like I was fighting against myself. I described it to him as though I was doing a cnc thing on my own. I wanted to edge but I also wanted to stop. when I was done, I felt so extremely used. I was exhausted, my holes were kind of sore from pounding at them but I was happy. it turned my brain off completely, I couldn’t hold onto a thought for more than a few seconds. I felt empty and it was perfect.now the punishment for refusing to give him an update on all that was one of the most creative punishments my master has come up with. god, he’s so great at this, I really am lucky. he decided we should try “water torture”. I had to soak a pair of panties in water, hang it on something and tie myself up underneath for 20 minutes so that the water drops hit my forehead.I should’ve just done that punishment but he said one little thing, that I definitely overanalyzed and it annoyed me and I got mad and told him I wasn’t gonna do the punishment. he was on a work call but I told him I didn’t give a fuck and still wasn’t gonna do it. I got another very mean punishment for this, but more on that later. for now, that was enough to get me to beg for forgiveness and do the punishment.I genuinely thought this would be a very boring and very obnoxious punishment, but it was anything but that. I ended up doing something that surprised both my master and I.I got the panties soaked in water and I laid underneath them. I had both my wrists tied to my ankles, which one, really limits my movement. and two, forces my legs apart, leaving my cunt exposed and omg, I fucking love how embarrassed that makes me feel. not being able to move and being forced to deal with drops of water repeatedly falling on my head was not boring, it made me feel trapped and horny….so fucking horny that I got to the edge just laying thereas I laid there, my imagination started to wander. I imagined my master with a couple of other sluts all watching me. he was making an example out of me, telling them that this is what happens to stupid whores that don’t do as they’re told. I imagined him allowing all the other girls to touch themselves and each other as they watched me and he simply sat back and enjoyed the show around him. I started begging to touch myself but I obviously couldn’t while I was tied up but I was bucking my hips and my clit was throbbing and I felt the air on my soaked cunt and all of it just pushed me to the edge. my cunt was so desperate to be touched after that, but I sort of calmed down. I just kinda laid there and fell into a daze, feeling dumb, empty and pathetic.now, the very cruel punishment for initially refusing to do the water punishment. he took everything away from me, literally everythingggggg for 2 days. No touching, no edging, no pain, no porn, no nsfw reddit. I mean he did still allow me to do my 10:23 edge because that one is really mandatory but besides that I got nothing.this punishment made me very aware of how often I touch/play with my tits. I mean they’re right there, how am I supposed to not touch them all the time. plus when I’m feeling a bit horny it’s nice to play with them a little and get myself hornier. this punishment was just straight up torture, I was so fucking horny and I wasn’t even doing anything 😭. it had me begging to watch porn, and I don’t even like porn that much. I kept getting these waves of intense horniness at completely random moments. it would literally stop me in my tracks, I would have to stop everything and take a couple minutes to calm myself down while trying very hard not to resist the urge to touch myself.the night before the last day of that punishment I was really begging for anything. I had just bought some clothespins and really wanted to do a long zipper. and i was really wanting to watch some porn soooo i begged him to allow me to watch some of the videos i recorded myself. he thought that was a great idea….but not while I was being punished. I was told that the first thing I would do after the punishment was over would be to do long zippers while watching my own “porn”.I don’t usually like rewatching my own stuff but I did this time. it was humiliating watching myself do filthy things on camera and the more embarrassed I got the hornier I got. the only problem was with the zipper. I set up 2 of them, with a total of 20 clothespins on my tits and down my stomach. these new clothespins really hurt way more than normal. even just having them in was a bit much. I was too scared to pull them off completely. I got the ones off my stomach but I wimped out of ripping them off my tits. I shall try again another time and hopefully not be such a baby.OMG i’m excited to write about this!!! it was fucking hilariousssss. I sent him a “dick pic” using my dildo as “my dick”. I held a ruler up to it and everything. lol I told him to come over and i’ll show him a good time 😂 he haaaad to have found it funny but he wouldn’t admit it. he was being all serious about it 🙄 he made me keep the dildo out on my desk and stare at it all day (cuz I wasn’t allowed to use it)uhmmm last night I got high, for the first time actually, and I kind of broke a bunch of rules. I have a max of 4 edges a day and I have to ask redditors for permission to edge for 3 of those anddd I was not allowed to be touching my clit. I kinda ignored all those rules last night and voice recorded like 11 minutes of edging myself 5 times. I was mostly begging and embarrassing myself in it. I offered to post it on reddit and ask people to punish me but he was against that for some reason (I just kinda wanted to embarrass myself by posting it)he punished me himself instead. For two days, and then for five more edges after that (so a max of 11 edges) my three during-the-day edges will be replaced by pain. so instead of asking redditors for permission to edge, you will ask for permission to hurt myself. I haven’t gotten to do this yet, I was busy today and I’m kinda scared to ask people for pain tasks. it’s easier to ask to be allowed to edge.I was given another punishment because I told him I didn’t feel like I was out in my place, (I still kind of don’t but whatever) I had to get on my knees, tie my wrists to my ankles and get my head in the floor. I stayed like that for 20 minutes repeating past mantras he’s given me. here’s some of the mantras I repeated: “you own me master”, “I belong to you”, “I will always trust your judgment sir”, “I want to make you proud master”, “I exist to serve cock”, “I am furniture”. I thought the position would be weird and uncomfortable but I liked it. it was sort of calming and I liked being down on the floor like that, it made me feel more submissive.I really enjoyed saying “you own me master” I just really like remembering that I’m an object he owns ☺️one last thing that I debated about putting in, because it’s creepy and obsessive but I want to remember it. I got into a weird headspace and wrote this long message for my master. “I very randomly found myself in a deep sort of sub space. I’m feeling dazed and extra appreciative of you and just generally more subservient. complimenting and praising you helps satisfy my almost instinctive need to submit. I know you found the whole “playing god” thing to be sort of dumb but in this moment I would love to do nothing more than to worship your entire being. I don’t just mean your physical being. I mean, your mind. your soul. your ideas. your mere presence. every fiber of your existence. I would worship the floor you walk on. I would be happy worshiping the space you embody. I would accept whatever you deem me worthy of. I’d take anything you’re gracious enough to offer me. you are deserving of more than I can offer you. no amount of praise I give you would be enough. you simply transcend the vernacular needed to even begin to do you justice. for that I apologize, you deserve to know how perfect and absolute you truly are.” yeah that’s word for word what I sent him. I know, weird and insane. he said he was used to it from me already 🥴 ughhh whatever, I profusely apologized for being weird and it’s just here for me to have as a memory.lol it’s time to thank my owner but I don’t think I can be more appreciative than what I already wrote in that previous paragraph but i’ll still thank him. I want to thank my owner for being there for a bunch of “firsts” from me. with the wrong person, I could regret doing some of the things i’ve done for him. but I got extremely lucky with him and I’m very happy that he gets to be there for so many of my first experiences doing things. I think I’m just thanking you for being a good person, but whatever. another thank you for putting so much effort into training me into being your good slut (that is occasionally bad, but I’m working on it 😅) I know I don’t make it easy sometimes so yeah thank you so very much for it. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n