I recently made a couple of posts about a failed attempt to deny for a week. That attempt culminated in a wonderful cluster of orgasms from my partner, who very much appreciated my attempt and promised we’d work more on my denial because he knows it’s important to me and he loves seeing how I am when I’ve been denied, of course.So, I decided I was going to try two denial periods back to back. One until this Thursday (9/2), sort of to ease into denial and experience getting over those first few days of difficulty. Then a longer session of 10 days while my partner is traveling abroad (9/3-9/13), so that I can be rewarded at the end if I succeed by receiving my orgasms from him or get punished with teasing a forced denial if I fail.Since Sunday, (it’s Wednesday morning now), I have stayed denied. Monday night was a very easy no touch, because I had just been so thoroughly satisfied the day before. Tuesday was a bit stressful and at the end of the night, I really, really wanted to touch myself. But, surprisingly I did not have the desire to cum! I just wanted to edge very badly. Historically, my successful denial periods have been short and totally no touch, because I am extremely sensitive and it’s easy for me to go over the edge in just a few minutes (especially after some denial). It’s particularly difficult for me to self-edge, it’s much easier to be edged by my partner who can’t feel exactly where on my clit to press any given moment to set me off, whereas my own fingers are just so well practiced they get me there immediately. Also historically, I’ve been extremely greedy with cumming. I usually cum before bed almost every night, and it’s quick and if I use my vibrator, at the end of a week with no self control I can be almost desensitized.But I know I deserve better than that and I’m ready to start my journey of self-control and training to be a good patient girl, for my orgasms (if and when I’m allowed them) to be a gift or a generous reward. Ultimately, I would like to be in a place where my only orgasms are with my partner or are explicitly for my partner. So unless I want to be in chastity, I will have to learn to edge myself and end it there.Last night was my first truly successful experience self-edging after denial and going to bed a good denied girl ☺️ I got home and rubbed against my pillow – straddling it at first with my soft short and thin undies on, then just the undies and then naked from the waist down. I watched myself in the mirror as I did this, slowly slowly. Then I really wanted more and i was truly worried I wasn’t going to control myself, but I took a deep breath and committed to staying a good girl. So I edged with a makeup brush and my fingers (for less than a minute) and stopped at a soft edge to be safe. Still, I had to look forward and focus at that last moment on not cumming and not giving in, I focused on being a good girl, and I did it! I went to sleep after that proud I didn’t cum!Now I’m in bed this morning feeling how swollen and wet and tingly I am between my legs without any stimulation at all, and I know that this training is so worth it ❤️ female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n
