A little masochist

I’ve always been a little masochist. It began as a curiousity at first. It started off as an experiment, really. Porn always shows those stuffs – pinching the nipples and spanking ass kind of thing.I started small. Simply by playing with my nipples. Not too soft, not too hard either. Just the right amount of pain for a newbie like me. The feeling was weird. It was my first time playing with myself too – my first time exploring my own body. Mind you, I haven’t touched my pussy…yet. Hadn’t discovered the beauty of masturbation at that time. Heeeey, I was innocent! 😂😂Then I got the courage to apply more pressure while teasing my nipples. Started to twist them. Started to pull on them hard. A guy I met on Omegle asked me to wear clothespins on my hard nipples. I did, and the pain was unbearable that I took it off shortly after.But for some reason, I kept on going back to that. I kept on using clothespins on my body until it started to get pleasurable for me. Gosh, the feeling of rubbing my clit while using that…. that was another level of goodness I swear.Soon after, I began spanking. Now spanking….it’s a different thing. Spanking got me addicted right from the start. I would face the mirror in my room back in the UK, and spanked myself hard to the point where the palm of my hands were red. I liked it. I loved it. I was addicted to the feeling of pain mixes with the pleasure….But I stopped after that.Because I was scared of what I was becoming. It confused me on how I could feel pleasure from those painful stuffs.But Sir. Sir is slowly turning me back into this masochist I was once again. He asked me to snap my cunt using rubber band. It was painful as fuck, but my pussy doesn’t lie – it loves being abused like that 😌😌I’m hoping no one reads till the end so I can escape my punishment… but if you do… remember when I said if I think badly about my body, I’d have to beg for punishment from everyone?….So…..as embarrassing as this sounds… I told Sir I still don’t like my body. I am still in the process of accepting my body and my slutty nature, but what I said deserved a punishment. So……please punish this denial slut? đŸ„șđŸ„șđŸ„șI’ll try to do it as long as it’s within my abilities (& if Sir approves of it). Not giving me punishment is okay too hehehe……truly hoping no one really reads this honestly………. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Basic denial slut transformation ✅

13.12.2020It was like I went into a subspace when Sir comforted me last night, but I’m not sure if that was what I felt. It happened in this one quick second. One moment I was crying my heart out, the next moment I was so ready to serve my Sir. I trusted him when he said it was going to be okay. I wholeheartedly trusted him when he told me that he is still here with me. I should be scared but instead, those words managed to calm me down, and I flipped my switch to change from being sad to a sub at that instant. Thats how great the effect Sir has on me – thats how much I trust him now.Sir then asked me to edge. He lifted off that ban on no touch and spoiled me. Being needy and clingy, I begged him for an orgasm. I usually begged Sir for ruins. Or to stop at that very edge so that I wouldn’t tip over. But not this time. I truly needed that relief. I wanted that orgasm so bad. I was so close too. I could have orgasmed without needing his permission, and I have no idea if it was Cal’s curse or the need to be his good girl but either way, I couldn’t get that orgasm all on my own.I was so so so so close, yet I couldn’t cum. Do you know how frustrating that is? I truly hated my body at that moment, for listening to Sir’s command way too much. I begged him over and over again. But then, a small part of me didn’t want that. A small part of me wanted this denial to stay longer. I didn’t want to start all over again. I didn’t want to stop edging. For him. For me. So I told him that I didn’t know what I want.Sir decided that for me. He told me keep going. Keep going. Keep going. And god. I did it. I came. And with his permission too. I got the relief I wanted. It felt good to the point where I was still shaking even after I came. Legs spread, blanket set apart, one hand in between my thighs, and the other was on my phone. It truly was so satisfying….And then it stopped being satisfying.Sir said this once to me before,“You know how we’ll know if you have truly broken?”Me: No sir, please tell me.Sir: If you feel immense guilt after cumming.And lord, I felt that. After the satisfaction of orgasm, I felt the guilt. I wanted to start edging again. I wanted to be used anally. I wanted to follow his every single command. I wanted to be good again. I wanted to feel constantly horny and wet and needy and being his slut all over again. Edging truly feels better than cumming and I know that now.Sir said that I’ve completed my basic denial slut transformation. I can be such a slut, I admit that. I did sexting with a lot of people before anyway, but I was never a denial slut.So hai…. I’m Maruka, and I am a denial slut. Nice to meet you all.14.12.2020After having a delightful inner fight within myself last night, I was back on no touch this morning. He woke me up, and had only said one fucking sentence, and that already made my cunt throbbed…which leads me to this next question. Is it like that for everyone else too? A single dirty message from your dom, and you’d get all excited and your cunt just…reacts to him? Because that’s what he does to me. A good morning from him makes me smile. Then he’d get down and dirty, and my body (& cunt) turn all needy. Heck, I’d be getting all whiny too.Sir then asked me to lay down on the floor. Ass up, face down. Ha, guess who felt truly dirty at that time? The first thing I did after waking up was to act like a whore in heat. It was a very embarrassing position for me, an act of submission if you’d like to call it, and that just proves of how committed I am to my Sir.I was so eager to edge, then he said I could only do that by fingering my ass. I wanted to pout, wanted to backtalk, but hey, I managed to hold it in this time! Training my ass is good, but it doesn’t mean I’m able to edge from that all out of the sudden. We’ll get there, he said. Suuuuuure Sir, very sure :pHe was away for a while, and I was left all on my own. My morning usually starts by edging, and now that I can’t reach an edge (mostly because I am still training my ass), it feels…weird. And exasperating. Sometimes Sir gets a little bit busy, so at those times, I’m okay. I can set my needs aside for a moment, and try to focus on my work. Then my phone would vibrate. “I’m back.”The throbbing on my cunt was back too. I could feel it getting wetter. I was scared I would stain my skirt this morning too. Once Sir was asleep, my mind was a mess. I would be busy with work, forgetting the ache in my cunt, then out of nowhere, it would appear. I had to stop doing my work, had to rub my thighs a bit, took a deep breath and back to concentrating.That happened for several times. That happens every time I’m on no touch, but today was the worst. After experiencing an orgasm, my body wanted that back. It ached. It got needy. And I swear, for the whole evening, I was dying to touch it. I wanted to hump my office again. Or at least grinded down on it, but whenever I was doing that, I stopped at that instant too.Because my order, before Sir went to bed, was to be on no touch. No grinding. No humping. Not even touching my nipples. He took all those privileges away, and my body understood that so well. My cunt knows who it belongs to.And honestly?I know who I belong to as well 🙂 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Denial story: Falling for denial – Day 1

Find the first part here:Part 0​I woke up with a jolt the next day. I could not remember my dream, but it must have stopped abruptly, for I was fully awake all of the sudden. It was a sensation I was not used to, for I usually am tired and grave for more sleep. Checking my clock, I saw that it was half an hour before my alarm would go off. And I suddenly realized that could not have happened on a worse day. I would usually know what to do with half an hour of spare time while lying in my bed. I cursed him quietly, when I thought back to the last evening. After he had left, leaving me wet and wanting and unsatisfied, I had deliberately started a Netflix show, and tried not to spare him and his stupid promise another thought. Only, my pussy had still been wet, my nipples had screamed for attention, and any time something slightly erotic happened in the show (or just something my mind could, with huge effort, interpret erotically), my thoughts had started to wander. And more than once, my hands had followed straight away. Until I had realized what they were doing, and moved them up again. I had decided to keep the show running until I fell asleep. And had thus watched at least three episodes, for it was not sleep my mind was craving for.Then I realized my mistake. Thinking about the past evening was not helping me in turning my thoughts away. “This is not helping”, I thought to myself, and decided to get up early and go for a shower. I was just on my way out of the bedroom, when I saw my phone blinking. I had a message from him, with a picture attached. It was a selfy from the airport, right before he was boarding his plane. The message read “Good morning, my dear! I hope you have a nice day coming up. Don’t get distracted”. And the picture showed him with bright grin on his face. One lip was tucked up a bit higher than the other, turning the grin into a slight smirk. As if he knew that I was thinking about him and his request first thing in the morning, wanting nothing more than to stuff my dildo inside myself. Stupid insufferable man
 stupid insufferable gorgeous man. I threw the phone onto my bed, and turned around to take my shower. Then, in a rash decision, I picked it up, pulled my pyjamas tight and arched my back, so that my breasts showed prominently beneath it, and took a selfy myself. Well, more of a breasty. Or a combination of both. My message with it read “Going to take a hot shower, all by myself. You are missing out!”. It was a bit of a crude comeback, but I didn’t care. I pictured him opening the message at the target airport, standing in a crowd of people. Served him right. I put down the phone, stepped out of my pyjamas, and went for the shower.And again, a long warm shower proved to be a mistake. Too much time to think, and too much contact of my hands with my sensitive parts. Damn this guy, why did the simple act of cleaning myself suddenly arouse me? Why where my nipples still so hard? Why did it feel so good to touch my pussy, even just for a few seconds? I set the water to cold, rinsed myself off, and went out of the shower shivering. But at least it cooled me down, and I was ready to start my day in earnest. Breakfast was good, and I was starting to forget about the whole favor thing and actually managed to spend an hour focusing on my studies. That was when his next message hit. “Hope you didn’t have too much fun in the shower 😉 Would have loved to be there, get you out of those pyjamas, and have my ways with you. Guess I will have to fantasize about that, when I get to my hotel room and take a shower myself.” That message threw me off again. I mean, what the fuck? I was not allowed to cum, and he told me he was gonna jerk off in the shower thinking about me? How was that fair? It simply wasn’t!I had already typed in “Screw you, I’m stopping this” and was ready to send, when I realizes the tingling. Surprised, I pushed my hand against my pussy through my pants. Why was I this wet again? Yes, it never took me long to get aroused, but this was ridiculous. There was nothing gentle in his message, nothing romantic. And yet, I realized that my breath was going faster already, and that my fingers were drawing circles over my jeans. I pulled my hand away, torn between being horny and being annoyed. Why did this arouse me so much? I guess it must still be the left over horniness from yesterday. After all, I did not get to release any of it.I deleted the written message, and thought about what else to write. “If only me and my mouth would be at that shower, I am sure I could relax you.” It just didn’t feel enough. I continued typing “Maybe this can help you in relaxing on your own”. I took of my shirt, and my breasts bounced free. I am never wearing a bra at home, at least not when I am alone. Then I licked over my lips slowly, and took another selfy. Actually, I took a few, before I found one where my breasts were displayed prominent enough. That should do it! And it was sent.Only then did I realize that I had never sent him this explicit a photo yet. Why had I done it? Was I rewarding him for being mean to me? Or was it just it to tease him back a bit? My last orgasm had been Saturday night, not even 48 hours ago, so that couldn’t have anything to do with it. Was it the fact that I did it for him? Determined to leave that streak of thoughts, I put my shirt back on. I could feel the fabric on my hard nipples, but I was determined not to acknowledge it. Sighing, I turned my phone on silent and went back to my study books.It took considerable effort, but for a few hours I did not check my phone. I even went and prepared lunch, before checking it. Let him wait for a bit. I was sure he had written a nice compliment to my photo, maybe if I did not read it for long enough, he would interpret my silence like it wasn’t good enough, and send a second one. I needed that affirmation right now. Once food was ready, I finally looked at my phone again. No blinking lights. Was it out of battery? Nope, it was running as normal. The checkmark next to the photo showed “seen”. Why the hell didn’t he even reply?Grumbling, I ate my lunch. But I also started to check my messages more and more often. Still nothing. Finally I snapped “Didn’t like what you saw? :P”. I was immediately annoyed that I had given in. But I didn’t want to delete the message either, he would see that. Again there was silence, and it took around 5 minutes before he finally replied. “Sorry, my dear. Had to rush to a meeting right after my shower. And I couldn’t very well open your messages right in the middle of a meeting, with your photo as the last message, now could I? But don’t worry, I liked what I saw. I came hard in the shower, thinking about it.” There it was again. He came, I did not
 So unfair. But he liked what he saw, that was something at least. I glanced down at my breasts. The shirt covered them, but I could make out my nipples through it, and at that moment I was very content with their looks. He liked them, even on a photo. Maybe he wasn’t so bad after all.I went back to my studies. Best not to let him draw me in like that. But this time I had forgotten to turn my phone to silent. After around half an hour, just when I had managed to focus, the next message appeared. “And your nipples look so hard in the picture”. I ignored it for around 5 minutes, then I could not hold back, and opened the picture. He was right. My nipples were standing proud and tall in the picture. And a glance down my chest revealed, that they still did. Or again. I could not tell. If only he was here to suck on them. I grabbed my breasts, kneading them softly. Then I realized what I was doing, and stopped again. I did not answer, but instead did my best to focus again. Only to be interrupted by my pinging phone again, not a full half an hour later. “You look extra hot when you are horny”. Annoying man
 didn’t he have to pay attention at his meetings? I ignored the message, continuing my work. Half an hour later, the next one arrived. “I bet you are still wet”. I tried to ignore it again, but a few minutes later, with a mind that simply could not focus on work anymore, I had to check. I pushed my fingers down under my pants, and could feel it immediately. My panties were drenched. I had done my best to not think about anything erotic, and yet my panties were drenched like I had barely ever experienced. And touching myself felt so good. I pulled my hand out, looking at my wet fingers. With nothing to wipe them on nearby, I decided to lick them clean. He was missing out! He could have so much fun with me right now. Damn him, I could have so much fun with myself right now, if only I was allowed to
 The phone pinged with messages all afternoon long. I did not reply to any of them. But I guess the fact that I read every single one within seconds after is appeared spoke for itself. And he did not seem to mind my lack of answers, keeping the chat going by himself.In the evening he had a business dinner which kept him busy, so I finally got some time to calm down and relax. I spent half of that time looking up his messages again and again. Sleep alluded me again, when I went to bed. I felt hot, and opening the window provided no relieve. “You could sleep naked tonight. You know, to keep your pyjamas clean”. That message caught me off guard, yet again. I had not commented on any of his messages about how wet I must be by now. Did he really know me this well? And had I not committed to enough of his requests already? Well, it was only one, but still. But I still felt holt, and taking of my pyjamas really did help a bit. A rarely slept naked, but tonight I appreciated it. Still, I was rolling around sleepless for a while, hoping and dreading for another message by him, before I finally found sleep. Stupid insufferable man
 stupid, insufferable gorgeous man. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Thoroughly used

My pussy was feeling too sore from being used the other week so when I was fooling around with a couple I’m dating, I decided to give my pussy a break and just be an oral toy for them to use. I made them both cum multiples times without receiving any pleasure. Then a couple days later when I was with my other partner who’s a massive sadist, they decided that since I was still out of commission, they would just straddle me and make me watch as they came using a wand multiple times. I still hadn’t cum since before seeing the couple. I was so unbelievably horny. And as punishment for being a brat I was allowed to use the wand to make myself cum but on the condition that I would change the vibration pattern every 20 seconds and would only be allowed to cum when the 20 minutes were up. I’ve been trained by them to cum on command, so to make it harder they spent the 20 minutes ordering me to cum knowing that I was forbidden until the clock ran out. The wand ran out of battery just as the timer was done. The conditions for my orgasm that they had set could not be met so I wasn’t allowed to cum that night or the next morning while giving them head. I’ve never been so ridiculously horny! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Denied during Winter Break – Day 1

Hello! I am currently being denied through winter break, until classes begin at least, in the hopes of disciplining me. I’ve loved denial for years now, but I’ve never tried a denial period of weeks or more because I get too greedy and let myself orgasm when I get too worked up. So I’m very excited for the opportunity to surrender my orgasm to someone else, so I have an incentive to behave like a better girl. Part of Sir’s directions for me is nightly posts here, which I happily obliged.As this is the first day of Sir denying me, my instructions were pretty simple: listen to Cals Curse, then edge. I definitely enjoy the mindgames of Cals curse, and Im really surprised at how effective it has been so far! During my edges I was trembling and dripping, covering my mouth with a stuffed animal so my roommates wouldn’t hear any of my noises. I wanted to cross the edge so bad, and I got close a couple of times, but eventually I had to let it fade so I could go the store and run my errands. I was aching and throbbing in the store, but doing my best to act like a “normal” person. I love how slutty it felt to be aching like that in front of people, paying for groceries.Ive never made recurring posts updating my denial before, so Im very excited to share my slutty thoughts and adventures with people here! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Advice on staying horny?

Hello everyone! So, me and my dom have been wanting to try denial and it is especially my idea, but since I told him what it meant and that I could be more horny and it would mean more pleasure for him, he got excited. We have tried it a few times but I keep having problems with it. We also live still with our parents but live close to each other so we can see pretty often.The thing is, I usually want to start denial when I am horny (cause it makes me more horny) and usually we start it then. We have this point system, which basically means we agree my denial to be for example 30 days long and i can do tasks to earn points and 1 point = 1 day out of denial. So for example from bj I can get 5 points depending if im being tied up or something and that mean my denial would be 5 days shorter. We have agreed that i can get max 10 points a day and i have to do 3 tasks to achieve that. So i can shorten my denial to be only about 4-7 days long which i dont think is very long.Now, that system is there to try and keep me horny. I’m studying in university and I know stress levels have an impact on my horniness. And I wanted to know if there is any advice on how to keep horny?Atm I usually become horny in the middle or in the end of my period and thats when my denial usually starts. So i start to do my tasks and feel super horny all the time, my concentrating is not the best and I just want to lay on my bed and talk to him and watch porn and everything. As soon as i start to do something like school work, my horniness goes away cause I cant concentrate on being horny. Now usually after a few days of being horny, it just stops. I’ve tried edging (Im not good at it, I keep having ruins) and we have talked about it, he is very understanding and never pushes me if i dont want to. So I stop being horny even if I havent had orgasm and if Im not horny, I dont want to do the tasks so I dont get points.So after a few days Im not even interested in denial or orgasm and I do not feel horny. Then goes a few weeks and then I feel horniness coming back, just a few days pefore my period starts and usually we just go for the orgasm cause I dont want to do touchin on period and the pain takes the horniness away.So, is there any advice on how I could stay horny for longer or is it just the stress or my birth control pills or are we just doing something wrong?Sorry for length and any troubles there might be reading this, english is not my native language. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

18 Longer Denial Period

Hi! It’s my first time posting on this sub so I thought it would be perfect this is my first post.Some background info I am a black bisexual18 year old. I haven’t cum since November but I have been edging almost everyday. Finals are this week so I will still have some classes but not as many for sure. So how long should my denial period last?View Poll female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n