Boyfriend doesn’t deny me.

I have a love hate relationship with denial, I love the orgasms it creates but I hate the act of doing it. Even still that submissive part of my brain wants to be denied all the time and not allow me to cum without his direct permission. However every time we engage in some kind of sexual activity he eventually lets me cum.I have a hard time telling him that I want this because In the moment I’m so horny that all I want is to cum. I should mention he enjoys making me cum because it’s a full body experience for me. I even recently got a chastity belt that he helped pay for and after I warmed him up he took it off! I’ve resorted to wearing it at night as pajamas so I still feel secure and denied, otherwise a may get the urge to edge and then try to sneak a ruin or even a FULL orgasm!I’ll try to be more open and I even think he’s warming up to the idea because so far I’m not allowed to cum unless it’s done by my boyfriend. We don’t live together so that denial for a week or so at a time. But I crave more!!! I want to be dripping wet all the time, I already cum easily so it’s not for that. I’ve read stories of submissives forgetting what it’s like to cum and getting scared of the thought and maybe not to the extreme but I love that idea so much. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Journaling through JuNO – day 13

My Dom has really taken a liking to seeing my headspace via journal entries this JuNO. I didn’t think writing my thoughts on denial would prove to be so therapeutic and yet arousing at the same time.Today I fucked up and disobeyed him. Don’t worry, I didn’t orgasm! But I did disobey a rule by begging for an orgasm. I’m not allowed to do that during “no orgasm” month.I wrote the journal entry on it today, but was a little shy about posting it to Reddit. I love this community and didn’t know if this was the right subreddit to send my first vulnerable posting on. Interested to see the other denial ladies thoughts 🙂 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n