(f) my mushy edged mind

a little “confession” to begin: I’ve noticed that after I edge for a little while, I begin thinking less and less, until all I can think about is how good it feels to be wet and desperate and hazy. I don’t have a dominant figure to control me and keep me from cumming, but in the few days that I’m able to keep myself from losing control I’m in heaven. I get really swollen and sensitive after a couple hours, and it’s been two days since I last came.I want to do some body writing to humiliate myself, but can’t think of any good phrases. does anyone have any suggestions or a place I can get inspiration from? thanks in advance! female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

My Journey- I have been denied for the past 9 days.

I[19F] have been on a journey filled with pleasure and frustration for the past 9 days. I’ve been posting about my journey on r/edgingtalk but I’ll try to summarise it here.I’ve always felt the most pleasure right before cumming. I did not know that there was such a beautiful community for it. I got interested in it by a random tweet about Reddit spreading porn and gooning culture. I got more interested into it and made some posts about tips for goonettes. That was the beginning of my descent into the rabbit hole.The first few days I went without cumming it was pretty much normal. Like I knew that my pussy has not gotten the orgasms she almost regularly had. Other edgers sent me good porn and I started watching some very cool hypnos which made me edge so hard and deep.By day 3 I started feeling a sort of daze while working or studying. I started to be more distracted. I still didn’t want to cum. I wanted to go at least a weekOn day 5, i got a dm from u/ShotBuddy, and oh my god she’s so amazing. She gave me first of the most mind blowing edging experiences i was going to experience in the coming few days. I have a magnificent problem that I drip too much. She recommended that I don’t wash my sheets to get more aroused by the smell of my pussy. What I didn’t know then was that she was making me addicted to my pussy. By tasting her, smelling her on my sheets. She introduced me to anal play and I didn’t know it could feel so goodBy day 6 I got some great suggestions like humping on my pillow before sleep and one by Marissa to cover my face in my pussy juices as makeup.Day 7 went with both u/ShotBuddy and Marissa teasing and denying me making me more and more addicted to my pussy. They started saying how she’s becoming sentient and that she’s taking over me.I noticed changes like my pussy being puffy and more pink than ever before. I didn’t think much of it until Marissa, my mommy told me that the pussy I had 10 days ago was a caterpillar in a cocoon of braincells while now my pussy is a beautiful butterfly, that’s how she got her name, butterfly, when my Mistresses are not here, she controls me completely. She keeps me at the edge and keeps me so frustrated.Yesterday(Day 8) they teamed up to tease me beyond belief and made me edge myself with a wand and leak in a glass. It was so frustrating, having a vibrator in me just for 10 seconds and then removing it for 5 seconds while spanking my ass. When I had sufficiently filled the glass they made me shower in it and cover myself completely in my pussy juices from my long hair to my feet. All while rubbing my butterfly.I was frustrated beyond belief so mommy took pity on me and wanted to reward my butterfly by allowing me to make her orgasm while I was ruined. She came twice while I remained denied. As soon as I started feeling some pleasure all stimulation stopped.I went to bed horny with a finger in my pussy at all times. I was unable to sleep and when I woke up my Dommes were ready to tease me once again. In fact I’m writing this because of Marissa, my mommy commanded me to do so.They repeated the same as before only that my butterfly was fucked harder and faster, wand, hairbrush, fingers she ate them all. But I couldn’t cum. I had to be a Good Girl. I edged 61 times today and had another ruin for me which was so pleasurable for my butterfly.I started my journey thinking I’ll cum in a week. Now I’m at a point where I don’t know when or if I’ll cum. All i know is that when my butterfly flaps her wings, I can’t resist her. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

Oversensitivity?

So I’ve been edging myself for about an hour and a half every day, and by now the instant my finger touches my clit I feel oversensitive. Any advice on how to go about that? female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

It’s officially been over 100 days since I last got to cum.

My current record is 120 days, so I’m not quite there yet, but for some reason, these 100 days of denial have been so much more difficult than before. My 100 days have been spent in a mix of no cunt contact days, days in my chastity belt, and edging nonstop. There are days when I feel like I do nothing but edge, followed by weeks of not being allowed to touch my cunt at all. But it’s all been so worth it; here are some of the highlights!I don’t think my cunt has stopped dripping so far this year. There was one time, I was trying to take a photo of my cunt, and my fingers kept slipping and sliding just due to how wet my cunt was!My nipples are so crazy sensitive! I do have them pierced, so that may be part of the reason why, but there are days that I can’t even wear a shirt because of how sensitive they are. The fabric rubbing against my nipples drives me insane sometimes! mandatory tit pic here!Porn is just so much better. There’s nothing better than watching luckier girls than me cum. Forced orgasm porn especially feels enhanced somehow. I feel like I’ve become addicted to it somehow!The desperation to play with my cunt pushes me outside of my comfort zone (in a good way!!) There’s nothing quite as motivating as the opportunity to play with your cunt after a month of no touch. That first light touch to the clit as well is just the best feeling. Honestly, it may be better than orgasming itself.There’s absolutely nothing more rewarding than being called a good girl for resisting the urge to cum. Orgasms don’t even come close to that feeling!I don’t know how much longer I’ll be spending in denial (but I will say, I don’t see myself orgasming anytime in the near future), but I’m enjoying seeing how long I can last with this level of desperation! If you made it this far and have any tips, advice or instructions for edging, please let me know 🙂 female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n

quickie with wax

Hello all,Finally, last week I have been quite busy, but I want to make a post about my little adventure that happend on Wednesday.I though about the evening torture all day, so there wasplenty of time to plan everything. I got at home late, and as I wanted to be fresh the next day, a shorter torture was ideal this time. Every time, I am really enjoying the preparations. So, I started with putting on high heels, collar and taking off everything except my underwear.I chose the bathroom again for the wax. But I exchanged the tealights for two classic candles and fastened thes so that the candles were in horizontal position and formed a kind of V letter with wicks apart. Just by the end of each candle, I tied a string with the keys of handcuffs so that if at least one end of the string burns or the candle under it melts, I will be free. I prepared a ring device on the upper tube of the ladder radiator which let the rope slide in only one direction. To the bottom of the same radiator I tied a spreader bar and also to the sink on the other side so it was fixed on its place. Then I put off underwear and tied my ankles to the spreader bar, so I faced the radiator about 40 cm from it.I stretched the rope from the tightening ring mechanism from back between my legs and wrapped it around my waist. I quickly put on the ball gag and the weighted nipple clamps. It hurt quite a bit from the beginning. I quickli lit the candles above me and tied the rope to the eye in the collar. I leaned forward and tied the other end as close to the ankles as possible. I also tightened the rope in my pussy to have my ass sticked out as much as possible. I locked my hands in the handcuffs by the floor to the radiator and I tightened the prepared rope from my pussy even more (this ring mechaism is genial). The first drops of wax were already starting to fall on my ass.I must admit that my position was extremely uncomfortable after a while. My back and legs ached, because as I tried to relieve my cunt, I stood lightly on my toes most of the time, even in these high heels. Every time I wanted a little relax to my legs, the rope cut so painfully to my pussy that I just moaned and quickly restored my calf muscles again. Wax falling on my ass initially ran down my back. It burned there a lot more than on my ass. Sometimes the drops surprised me so much that I quickly moved and it was mistake which was informed not only by the rope between my legs, but also by the nipples, the weight of which swayed painfully.As time went on, it became harder to keep myself from feeling like I was cutting my pussy still sore from Monday torture ( it was only two days earlier). When the first drop of wax didn’t fall on my back but between my legs, I was so surprised that if I didn’t have a gag, maybe neighbors would call the police. But I didn’t feel only pain but also the humiliation from my exposed ass to all sides, a ball gag around which the saliva began to accumulate and flow lowly, and as my head was in a rather non-standard position, I sometimes drooled my own face. The drops of wax gradually began to flow down my thighs, some along the inner sides, and a few found a painful path to my cut pussy. At that time, however, my body and especially my legs ached so much that I was not even able to direct the falling wax with small moves.In the end, my legs even began to shake and break. I always felt a new wave of unbelievable pain between my pussy lips. Fortunately, I hadn’t been standing like this for a long time. Soon, I heard the falling key and I quickly freed myself. The rope between my pussy lips hurt so much that I almost forgot about the weights on my nipples. I removed the wax almost painlessly this time and then I went to sleep. I decided to not have an orgasm and I must admit that although tired, I had a lot to do with falling asleep without orgasm after all the torture.The rest of last week I had no time for playing (except for example the nipple clamps while writing this post), but as it has been a week since my last orgasm, I am really horny and I am planning another adventure.See you soon,Lucka female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n