Hello, dear people.I have not had an orgasm since mid July. It was involuntary denial, as I was to spend all that time fith family or working and sleeping with people in a room. Basically, I always had roommates, from July to mid September.Or so I thought.I embraced the thought of being in denial for two months, teasing myself where I could, chatting, imagining… It got to a point where I was incredibly needy – so much so that I was squirming while in no-touch. The arousal was too much to not physically react to it. I was squeezing my thighs throughout, grinding the seam of my jeans into my silently screaming clit, et cetera. I was so wet i could see a slimy wet spot in my soaking bikini panties! I could almost always smell my arousal. After not touching but looking at… uh, certain resdit gifs for a few days, i couldn’t take it anymore, and I edged in a public toilet. I kid you not – two edges in 15 to 20 seconds. I quickly had to leave, so that’s why it wasn’t anymore. That was July.That may have been the moment, that sealed my fate. I may have also just accepted the fact I wasn’t cumming ’till September, and it was cemented into my subconscious. Since that day, I’ve had plenty of opportunities to cum. To rub myself to completion. To finally clench on my fingers as my muscles contract in climax.You guessed it – I didn’t. I just edged, edged, edged, got more and more deprived, needy, drippy…. I’ve recorded myself moaning and edging for someone, I’ve edged, I’ve humped furniture and almost came by that, which is otherworldly to me. I started putting tooth paste on my clit, while edging at first, but today i smeared it into every corner and fold of my clit after edging and before leaving the house. Every step reminded me of my depravity. The burning sensation made me want to tip over the edge so bad…I acquired a pet pretty much at the beginning of my denial period. I’m denying him aswell. Usually I’m a dominant switch, but my neediness is messing with me, so my pet and I take turns teasing, dominating each other. Our phantasies grow more and more perverted. I love how needy he is for me, edging when I tell him to, hurting himself for me, just to be my good little puppy. We tease each other that we’ll use the other to cum but denying the orgasm of the sub – knowing full well neither of us will cum.We’ve started acting out orgasms. When we edge, we imagine our bodies feeling the orgasm, we scream, we moan, we squirm. That’s all we get now. Those are our orgasms. It makes me so much hornier….I have also dreamed about cumming. More specifically, I thought I wasn’t dreaming and thought about cumming. Then my body just felt the orgasm – i was shocked, and the shock made it a ruin. I ruined my dream orgasm! After that even throbbing after edging felt kinda dangerous at times.The urge to cum keeps building. While I lose myself less in the edging itself for fear of making one too many movements and tipping over, the want to cum is definitely stronger.I’m currently on my way home. Where I’d be alone for the first time in two months. I’m not sure I want to cum, I’m not sure I want this denial to end. Please please please tease me. Please, I need your attention, your cruelty. Make it hard, help me stay denied. Tell me your thoughts, your twisted phantasies, your advice, your need. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n
