Hey guys,In my previous post I’ve told the story of how I got to know edging and ruining, and about my half year long orgasm denial which is supposed to end on 20th May.Those of you who hoped for it to be extended: you can be happy. ;(So how did we come to this?3 weeks ago I was told to have a ruined orgasm. It was late at the night, I should’ve slept already and I wasn’t alone in the house. I didn’t really want to do it, ‘cuz when he guides me I have troubles holding back on my moans. That’s my little payment for him: letting him hear what his words do to me. I love to return his kindness with that at least. He talked me into it, I needed a little pushing, but I knew I can’t disobey. I knew if I don’t do it, he will use it against of me the next time..Obviously I got really turned on and gave myself a ruined one. I begged for it as he wanted me. And after that, I wanted more. I was so sloppy, still throbbing from the previous ruining. I just wanted to do it again, that was the only thing in my head. I begged for it. And he denied it. I had to go to sleep like that.After that I didn’t have any time to play with myself for over a week. When I finally got some time alone, it was the day right before my period. That’s the absolute worst day for me: I get horny without any control. I don’t care about anything else than shoving something into my pussy and ravage myself. And I made a mistake. I touched myself without permission. I edged myself once without permission. After my mind got clear I realized what I did.. I was so hesitant to tell him about it. I was afraid. Not that much of a punishment, but to disappoint him. I needed some hours to gather my courage and confess. He wasn’t happy about it, but forgave me. We agreed on a new task for me as a punishment and as the preparation for our meeting. To make me even more desperate (which I thought isn’t possible, so naive still, haha), he suggested complete denial.No orgasm. No ruining. No edging. Not even touching my cunt.The next time I can feel anything close to my pussy will be with him, when I can have my orgasm.Sadly, after 2 weeks of daydreaming and planning of our meeting, it turned out it won’t happen in May, only in August. We both are sad about it, but had to accept it. Which raised the question of what’s going to happen with my Orgasm-day. You can find it out yourself.My Orgasm-day will be somewhere in August, when we spend some weeks together. By then I will be denied from orgasming for almost 9 months. At this point I’m afraid that he will say that since I’m so close to the one year, we should wait for that. I’m also afraid that my orgasm won’t be as good as I hope it to be, that it will leave me frustrated.And what about the complete denial?That remains til 25th May.5 weeks of no touching at all. He makes sure to make it hard for me. He teases me, makes me read stories about denial.Honestly. This is. Absolute. Pain.Sometimes I’m really close to cry from frustration. I thought it wouldn’t be so hard. My pussy throbs, I catch myself sliding my hands down on my stomach towards my greedy cunt and then I have to grip my shirt or pants to keep myself away from there. I start to think I would be happy to wear chastity, ‘cuz I’m afraid I can’t stay strong alone. My thoughts are focused on perverted things constantly.Before I was so fixated on getting an orgasm, but by now, I would be so happy just from a little rubbing over my clit. Edging and ruining is a gift and I’ll be thankful for them the next time when I’ll be allowed to have any of them.But until that.. I promised I would last, so I will. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: http://bit.ly/1UWn54n