How to Handle Humiliation

Does anyone else have a confusing relationship with humiliation? I truly hate it in the moment, but it does make me so wet when I play or think of it later. For instance, Ive had one real big girl orgasm in 30 days. I’ve had several little girl orgasms (edges), but I have to ask permission first, which is so humiliating for me. I”m so worked up, and Daddy has told me that I can ride his knee the last couple days, but I haven’t because it’s just so embarrassing to imagine approaching him to do that. I’ve been punished two days in a row now because I haven’t done it. I really want to, my clit is in such need of attention. I just can’t get over the humiliation of actually doing it. I’ve done it before, but it’s so hard. Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with being humiliated purposely? I know I should just get over it, and he’s probably not going to let me touch at all until I do it. Plus, if I don’t do it soon, the punishments are going to continue and will likely become harsher. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: For women: