Reddit, I done fucked up. I orgasmed without my dom’s permission. Several times.I’m fairly new to orgasm denial and edging, so I’ve been learning a lot about myself and my needs in this process. Sir S has been there guiding me through it all, checking in with me and learning more about my needs. We’ve had really excellent and open communication, until last night my communication completely fell apart.It was my 8th day of denial, and I was finally allowed to cum. My dom had me take a video of my orgasms and send it to him. It had been a long road to get to this point, and I really enjoyed the release. But for several reasons I didn’t feel like I had gotten all my needs met, and while I did communicate some of this to my dom, I failed to be clear and direct.One of the needs was an opportunity to orgasm off-camera. Masturbating on camera is sort of like having sex with someone else. And I love that, but I also love touching myself alone. The other thing was that I was still really really horny! I’d had several orgasms, but apparently that wasn’t enough and my body was still very needy. The third thing is that I’ve been sort of chronically sleep-deprived since the whole denial process started. I’ve always used masturbation to help me fall asleep, and not being able to, or only on a limited basis, has kept me awake countless nights at this point.So a couple hours after I’d had those orgasms, it was time for bed. And immediately I felt like I was already deep into a period of denial. I texted my dom to ask if I could touch myself. He asked me if I wanted to edge. I don’t know why I wasn’t honest with him. I think at that point I couldn’t actually bear to hear a no. Usually hearing no makes me hornier, and at this point I just… couldn’t. So I said yes, I wanted to edge. He let me edge twice. And then the night wore on, and I couldn’t sleep. And I couldn’t sleep. And finally I thought I just had to orgasm. I just had to have this moment alone in my bed like I used to, when it was just me and my orgasms and then sweet blissful sleep. And I didn’t want to ask for permission. I wanted it for me, and so I took it.As you can imagine, Sir S is very disappointed. And he wants you to punish me, Reddit. What do you think I deserve?My limits are here: https://ift.tt/3mQpzDw that Sir S can only punish me virtually. Also very important to note for punishment: I can’t make loud sounds that will carry outside of my bedroom. female orgasm denial Get your own Orgasm Control toys: For men: http://www.amzn.to/1V6XQvv For women: https://ift.tt/1UWn54n